Fast Running Mommy

I don't know if getting up early every day is good for me or not. I'm okay most of the time but I don't always have the stamina I need to get me through my day...my kids are okay mostly it's just going from activity to activity and having to fight my four year old to obey me...that wears me out more than anything else.  Maybe I should sleep in some days and run around the block when I wake up later?  

It's amazing though that the actual running does make me feel better. It seems I'm more tired and achy on Sundays from not running.....anyway...I'll figure it out but I just need to figure out how to stay sane while I take care of all my babies..including Sasha.

BTW, Sasha was really sweet when he got home on Saturday and tried to take me out for a date....I wasn't feeling up to going out for some reason and convinced him to take the girls out instead...they deserved a Daddy daughter date and had a fun time. :) 

nice normal run....no dark shadows moving although two scary guys walked towards me...I'm thinking, "Those punks...what are they smoking?" As they got closer they were two old teddy bear grandpas out for their morning stroll. 

One time I saw a group of punky teenagers congregating on the trail...turned out to be a group of runners resting after their long Saturday run.  

Resting my knee today...it's been bugging a bit. Also I woke up at 3 and only went back to sleep for a short time before 6 when I dreamt that I passed out in front of the bishop's office on the way to pay tithing for my four year old!!

ARGGHHH! More insomnia..I guess running two was a bad idea yesterday...I also took it easy and didn't go anywhere...so then my body says...Tired..your not tired...you need to work more woman!!!

Okay...I walked a little the last mile because I felt a little faint...it's been awhile since I've done five. ...but it felt great to go longer. 

did five..I don't know if I'll keep this up every day...already I feel that familiar feeling of "I just had a baby" laziness creeping in...which is why

1. I didn't make my bed today

2. I haven't showered yet

3. I did not do any Saturday morning chores with the kids

I did however

1. Run 5 miles around an avg pace of 10:10 or so

2. Clean my bathroom..sweeping, mopping and all

3. nurse a baby a few times and play with him

4. Try not to scream at the kids for fighting all the time..I was patient I was I was. :)

5. Make tuna sandwiches and fresh applesauce

6. Give my boys haircuts..I haven't stopped going....this is making me tired...maybe I should go crawl into my unmade bed?  

Ran two with Jenny at 10 min  mile pace and then felt really tired but did one more mile. Jacob had a bad fever and kept me up last night. 

I felt tired after the first 2 miles today but I got to run with one of my favorite people and wonderful conversationalist...Luz Lewis. She drove out to meet me and when ran past her house twice but she was willing to go the extra miles to run with me and I'm grateful for it. My eyes are puffy today from lack of sleep. Luz said it's hormones and she is probably right. I wake up in the middle of the night and cannot fall back asleep. William is peacefully snoozing and all is well with the children but my body just won't rest. I'm hoping and praying that running a little more and trying to be active and happy during the day will help. 

Things went from bad to ugly....almost no sleep last night and I'm turning into a basket case. Sasha is being as helpful as possible but I'm afraid I'm going to push him to his limit. The only thing I can be grateful for is that the insomnia is happening now and not right after William was born. I usually have insomnia for awhile from just having a new baby in the house who never sleeps. For the first time out of six kids I didn't get it. I was sleeping 6-8 hours every night. I was able to get on a good schedule and get going in the mornings, teach my kids, organize my house and have time for fun and good humor later in the day. Sure I've been tired but not exhausted. I'm not sure why it's happening now but maybe I just have to suffer through a little insomnia with each baby to make me love them more...don't know. So any suggestions what I should do with all my free time? 

three easy miles :)

three easy miles that were hard. I'm feeling back to myself....sorta...

so since I'm sleeping just fine again I have NO motivation to run more....I can wait a couple of months when William is a little bit older...no rush. I've been sleeping in to make up for lost sleep and haven't been running in the mornings. I'll run sometime today..I know Sasha will make sure of that. :) Happy Heart Day everyone!!!

real quick funny story. Sasha, I, Elizabeth and Ted Leblow went out to dinner together last night. Ted tried to talk Sasha into going out somewhere new (we always go to the cafe at Good Earth)....but to no avail...So we were a little worried that it would be crowded on Valentine Weekend. When we walked in it was completely empty...we had the whole place to ourselves..so for future reference...noone wants to be healthy on Valentine's day...they want expensive steaks and hearty stuff to last until next year!! :) 

severe sore throat....just 1 today

It actually felt really really really really ..I could go on..really good to write in a zero. I like taking breaks. We are soooo taking a break today. In fact the whole Fast Running Family is not running today. Go ahead ...make it a national holiday...the day no one in the Pachev house ran. Sasha has a terrible high fever and is half delirious. Benjamin has it, Jenny has it and Jospeh has it. Jacob had it last week and Julia too. By the grace of God I have been spared so I can keep everyone around here somewhat alive and William also is not sick although he hasn't napped normally for like three days because Sasha keeps waking him up because he's going in and out of his sick room. If the insomnia last week was bad..this may be worse. Good thoughts and prayers this way much appreciated because I'm about ready to crack. Taking care of sick kids, husband and a baby for several days straight is getting to me (which is why I'm not running today either....don't want to get sicker than I am and I need every ounce of strength to keep things running)

I have reverted to morning cartoons...which I NEVER let my kids watch..I hate having them sit around and watch TV but this is an EMERGENCY!!!!

I did write a zero there this morning..just x that entry...well I'm leaving it for entertainment value. I had to get out and run a little. It felt great. I think I'll go for 2 tomorrow and will be back at 3 by the weekend. :) 

Sasha has an ear infection and was up all night. I have the beginnings of mastitis....

William has a fever now and kept me up all night...Benjamin, Julia and Jacob seem to be mostly normal. Joseph is still coughing and Jenny is semi-better. Now it's time to bring out the sense of humor and just laugh about this. Nobody is so sick that I'm worried about their life but we are all kind of stinky and yucky looking....and you should see my bathroom....ew...Russians don't believe in kleenex...they blow it out in the sink.....mostly because their version of toliet paper (they don't even have kleenex there actually..well...maybe now but not 15 years ago)..anyway, their newspaper was printed on softer paper.   

My neighbor brought dinner and is watching kids for me this morning so my spirits are up. Thank goodness for the Relief Society!!! 

Things are starting to look up....at least the kids are healthy again. Sasha is on the mend. No fever today and the infection seems to be mostly gone. He really hates antibiotics or otherwise he would have been totally healthy today I'm sure. It is better so I think he'll get his wish and not have to take them. I felt ready to go 3 today and was grateful for a more normal day. All of this has made me more grateful for my husband and my children and I hope I don't lose sight of that too quickly. 

This has been one of those months...yes it has. I am grateful for the sunshine today. I took William for his first official walk. We've walked places with him...mostly church functions but that didn't exactly count. He was mad from some injustices like tummy time and neck exercises (he has a slight imbalance and tightness on one side that I have to stretch out several times a day and of course he hates it). The sun warmed and cheered all of us.

I felt really strong today. I actually ran the first mile pushing the stroller and it didn't bug me. The last two miles felt great. It would have been the perfect run except for the dogs that got out and ran after me. They seemed like pretty nice dogs except that even nice dogs have teeth. I screamed at them. (my best form of self-defense...I have a great loud piercing soprano voice)  The owner came out right away and looked like a nice responsible type of lady so I felt bad that I screamed at her nice dogs with teeth....kinda....

Felt a little tired during the last mile. 

Talked to one of Sasha's running partners today about pipe organs. He is building his own....wow...Although I hate being the ward organist and constantly stressing about playing for Sunday...I love playing the organ. I took a class at BYU and have been in love with it ever since.

So my great-grandma played the organ and she had her own in her parlor back in Texas. We inherited it after she passed on and then my Mom passed it on to a friend when we moved to Russia. I'm thinking it's time to get it back into the family. It has a full pedal board and as far as I remember was a lovely organ..huge but lovely. For a true organist a full pedal board in your home is quite a wonderful thing. It means you can practice the pedals without going anywhere....So..those are my morning musings for today. I seem to be a little tired this morning.....maybe it's from the insanity of last week...who knows. Things should go back to a normal level of insanity this week. :) 

Luz and I got together today..Hooray!! What a fun way to start the day. I feel energized and happy... grateful to her for words of kind wisdom and loving friendship and a faster pace than I do on my own...I feel great and ready for the day.!!

So I found out the other day that my thryoid levels are whacked...which explains the insomnia problems and the trouble losing weight...argh!! I'm a little tiffed at my doctor for not giving my the right level of medicine. Hopefully it will get back on track and I can feel a little bit better. having been feeling too bad but I have noticed this recovery has been a bit harder. 

Joseph must want to grow up to be a personal trainer like his Daddy...he says to me, "Mommy, we need to get the fat off of you." 

He also told me that I'm not allowed to cut my hair. The two years between hair cuts is up and it's time to donate another 10 inches of my lovely locks to Locks of Love.  I think I'll give him another 3 weeks to get used to the idea. Maybe I'll talk my hairdresser friend into letting him hack off the ponytail and have her do the fixing.  

i think the more responsibility I add to my life and the more I'm willing to just shut up and serve (not a phrase you'd probably hear in general conference or that I would use with my children since that and other words like stupid are words we just don't say)...uh..anyway...the more I'm willing to give my life in service the more I am able to see the very real and very timely tender mercies of the Lord. 

I have had a real struggle adjusting to having six children. I think there are several factors at hand but I'm sure that one of them is the fact that my thryoid hasn't been stable...that really can make havoc for you when all the sudden you can't function. Yet I have seen the Lord's love for me in little ways so many times in these last four months of stumble trip type of lifestyle that I cannot deny his ability to find ways to minister to all of his suffering ones. That doesn't mean he doesn't let us suffer a great deal but I have faith that a perfect balance exists. Usually for me it happens when I'm really truly at my wits end and then something happens...like magic somebody is there for you.  I hope you can be that somebody for someone else today. And if you need a lift I'm a good tenderhearted friend. Send me a PM and I'll send you a cheery note of encouragement. 

crazy day...I ran to the church at 10:00 at night with my purse in my hand so I could get into the church to practice the organ. My neighbors saw me and I wondered if they recognized me or if they thought that I was a crazy lady running away with my loot from the scene of the crime.