Fast Running Mommy

I was STARVING all day yesterday and I'm tired today. I'm not sure what I did to myself on Wednesday but I'm still feeling it. I have to admit that I am determined that I won't resent my runs. For me the emotional balance in my life is vital to making it happily through  my day with my very perceptive and very needy little darlings. I've learned that if I'm going to swim and not sink through my day as a homeschooling natural meal preparing kind and loving mom I have to watch that emotional balance very closely or the balance will tip and I will resent my runs. I want to be able to run and I want it to bring a vitality to life that enhances my ability to get through my day. I realize some days I will be tired and I'm not afraid of that....just searching for the balance. 

ran by myself and just couldn't make myself do that last 100 meters....i know Sasha would laugh his head off at me and probably kick me out the door if he were home....but he's not..he he..

It snowed again....we need to live in Josse's neighborhood. I heard she has one of the ATV's with a snowplow....I am so sick of shoveling the snow.....and I'm bad at it...Benjamin does a better job than me. And my neighbors ALWAYS have it down to the pavement....even if they do it at midnight...no sunshine to help melt that last tricky layer. 

Next Christmas I want a snow blower.... 

I was super tired today for some unknown reason...probably because Fred is coming to visit and that always wears me out when he's in town. 

Feeling good today. I made homemade root beer for my kids. My mom used to make it and we always called it Root Beer Koolaid because she just added sugar, flavoring and water....My kids loved it. They had homemade ice cream with it for their first root beer floats ever believe it or not. 

good day...nice 10 minute pace....winter isn't going to end...I can't let myself get hopeful..it's here to stay....I'm trying to psyche myself up for another month or so...is this working on anyone?

Okay my trick on my brain worked...I am ready for another month of winter. ..but come March. It's making me really look forward to our trip south in Feb....

5 nice miles on the trail by myself. I always miss conversation these days because I really am swamped by my darling children during the bulk of the day and miss chatting with friends. I can' t really get together with play groups for my younger children because of homeschooling my older ones. I get out in the afternoons and take my older ones to dance or other classes and enjoy some adult talk there. I'm a talker and could spend the better part of the day discussing ideas. I would like to believe that I am not a gossiper. I try to portray people in the best light. Although I do occasionally air frusturations about difficult people I live by a creed to speak no ill and still try and be fair when I am frusturated. 

I woke up in a bad mood. (I am actually usually perky...even at 5:45 when I wake up) I am happy for another day. But last night Jacob kept me up and I guess that got me up on the wrong side today.

Then I had to face running alone today...I've gotten so spoiled and I dread being alone for 5 miles...it's just a long time.

So two cats fighting, one scary giant iceberg sculpture on the fence of some creative souls in the trailer park, two icy puddles that soaked my left foot and two yapping dogs that escaped through the fence made me decide to cut my run short today and try to run with the girls in the afternoon. Fun fun....

Added a little bit by myself and with the Julia. Luckily I had a play/homeschool date set up with my friend Yulia who is totally laid back and great to be around and help you cheer up.

Sasha teasing me about the dogs didn't help my mood. Although he did give me some good advice that I think will help me not overreact in the future. He basically told me that most dogs are not taught to attack people and will run away from you if you scare them off. I guess I should only fear for my life if I run into a pit bull or the likes. 

50:33 good run

I thought I already posted this today...but it wasn't showing up...here we go again. 49:36 felt really good today..I love those days and wish I knew how to reproduce them every day. Yesterday was one of those tired days. Somebody said something to me that got under my skin a little bit and I ended up taking it personally.  Anyway, today was a great day and a great run. I made the most delicious cinnamon rolls ever, took my kids to the library, had a date with Julia, read a million stories to my kids and was smart enough to tell Sasha to put the kids to bed so I could come veg downstairs....

I'm almost done with my "dream quilt" I have to finish one more strip and sew the last two strips on. I'm going to have a quilting party and invite friends in my neighborhood and friends from the blog to come, eat , talk and of course quilt...little or no experience needed because I'm not a perfectionist myself and don't really care if the stiches are perfect. I was debating on how to quilt it because it's such a unique quilt. I decided on letting each person do whatever they want with each square...so hopefully at least squares that are touching eachother are quilted differently....if you are reading this Josse or Michelle or anyone else with quilting knowledge let me know what you think.

Beautiful run. 50:33 sub 10 pace. We tried to slow down but ended up speeding up even more...we chatted and really enjoyed our run. Nice to have Amanda back.

We were tired this morning because we ran faster and at night...only 10 hours ago. So...we were dragging through the last..oh 2.5 miles...ugh. Benjamin is having a b-day party today. I'm excited for it. 

50:53 for 5.1

Felt good when I woke up but a little bit winded on my run...guess I shouldn't talk so much...Sasha says he'd be tired if he talked as much as we do when Amanda and I run together. I have plans to ignore my kids as much as possible and finish the quilt top...

My sister saw it and said it was ugly...I told her it was supposed to be ugly..it's art. (does that make sense?) 

49...ish...a little bit off...we went sub 10 and I felt tired at the end...I am getting old. It was sooo freezing today. My hands are crazy hands....I think all my warmth goes there. I can have freezing parts all over me but my  hands are sweating. 

hungry....52 minutes..and it didn't feel slow...I hate that

Announcement.....I finished the quilt top...I'll buy the filling or whatever you call it today and as soon as my grandma calls me back I'll know when I can start quilting it (I'm borrowing her frame) I'm shooting for the week of March 9th.

Sasha has to show me how to post pictures and he's busy busy...so...i'll get the picture up in a few days. :) 

Gonna do two more this afternoon with my girls.

I taught a lesson in my ward about eating whole foods. Mostly went well. I was a little nervous for some reason. Usually I don't mind speaking in front of people. I was fine once I got warmed up.

At the end this lady that gave me a hard time the last time I spoke on Food Storage gave me a hard time again. I asked the women to bring the most unhealthy thing they had in their house to be donated to science.....Only a few ladies brought things and the lady that I dubbed the winner or the Biggest Loser because it was the unhealthiest didn't mind when I threw the packet of ramen noodles in the trash.....that was part of the game and part of the point.

Ramen noodles is a great example of cheap really really bad for you food. I happen to love them and grew up on them but they are full of everything that is bad for you and nothing redeeming except you won't starve if you eat them.

Another thing that I talked about was Cream of Chicken soup. That has just about everything bad for you in it too and is a staple in every Mormon cookbook ever printed.

I challenged the women to buy one healthy thing instead of a processed food they usually buy. Buy a bag of blueberries instead of those blueberry poptarts....for example. Maybe you ladies on the blog can try this too. Eating whole foods can be more expensive but you can make it work if you spend less money on processed foods.

49 minutes Felt good to run with Amanda after she was out for her wisdom teeth. Poor thing had to go in twice and it's been harder recovering this time. 

The fast running mommy and fast running daddy (otherwise known as Sasha) have a joyous announcement to make...Sometime in October our fast running family will have a little addition. We are expecting our 6th child!!!  So looks like one more chick will be slowing down a bit for a very good cause. We are overjoyed. 

I woke up kind of feeling panicky about when I'll have to stop running with Amanda.. She can't handle a slower pace because it hurts her knee. In a few weeks I'll be too slow for her. I'm sure it will be hard the first couple of days and then I'll get back into a schedule of going by myself. It was good while it lasted...sigh....

That for me is probably the only hard thing about being pregnant this time. After having 5 children I feel I've been through some rough times and can weather some more. My older kids are very excited to help and my younger ones will be okay.....as they have brother and sisters and Dad to help them if Mommy is having a bad day.

We always find out what we are having. I like to get ready for the baby and call it by the name we've picked out and all that....so I'm counting down the weeks to the first visit and then to the ultrasound.    

Feeling okay so far ....just a little lightheaded if I don't eat right away but not the strong urge to eat and the sickness if I don't that I'll get in a few weeks I'm sure. 

I really have fairly good pregnancies. I'm more tired and tire more easily but I function fairly well for most of the time..first few weeks are rough and last few weeks. Then after the baby is born I completely stop functioning and concentrate on nursing and trying to take care of myself.

Pace was still 10 minute a mile..no slow down yet.  

We were speeding today...48:40. I felt fine. I'm a little tired now...which is bad since I need to get ready for the trip but I'm trying to chill a little now so I'll  have the energy to finish up the packing later.  Can't wait to see Lybi!!!

Did 2 around Lybi and James's lake in their beautiful Arizona neighborhood. I love the bushes of Rosemary growing around the duck lake. Having lots of fun. 

I had the weirdest run today. I was fine when I woke up but as soon as I started running my nervous system gave up and I felt totally exhausted and couldn't run. I stopped to walk several times and finally gave up. I started cleaning out the car from our traveling the day before and started feeling better. I still only did 2 miles because it was getting late and time to come home and take care of my kiddos. Lybi is awesome...I know everyone is jealous that I get to hang out with her.